Ever been paintballing? It's the close-range shots that hurt the most. And it's the same with life stuff. We get wounded if something close to our hearts, or someone that we trust, turns out to be not quite how we thought, or wanted. Betrayal, man. It stings (King David felt it - read the whole story in Psalm 55). Even if we're not the type to admit to feeling 'wounded' when stuff goes wrong, it still affects us. Betrayal, and other messy life-stuff, throws us out of balance. And, truth is, not dealing with it properly affects our relationship with God. This might feel like a tough idea, but not taking time to work through those it separates us from the fullness of God's grace. Matthew 6:14-15 brings that home.
Also, not dealing with hurt can lead us into a new sense of not-quite-full-trust towards God. The likelihood is that we might not be yelling at the sky, raging at God, but perhaps just feeling slightly... off. We're not saying that it's a conscious act, but the stuff that sits on our heart changes its landscape. And there's only one thing that fixes it. Honesty. With God, and ourselves. It's ok to feel hurt. It's not un-Christian. It's not petty. It's human. And, guess what, we are human.
So what now? We need to learn to hand over the deep stuff to the Holy Spirit. Go for a 30 minute prayer walk today, and assess whether anything is sitting, undealt with, in your mind. Talk to God about it, 100% honestly. Keep nothing back. Invite Him to heal you.
Soulfood : 3 Jn, Jude, Mark 9:38-50, Ps 84, Prov 22:24-26